For the past 30 years, I’ve read the Bible from cover to cover. After retiring from the pastorate, I’ve committed to in-depth study of God’s Word and its original languages. For no other reason than to know the Lord better. To get closer to Jesus. Be more like Him? A hope with little howling success to brag about.
What I notice is that my internal view of God can be quite different from what I encounter in His Book. A good example can be found in Psalm 106:1–‘Praise the Lord. Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever.’ God is so good. His love lasts forever. Praise God! Clear as a bell.
But deep inside, I’m waiting for His other shoe to drop. One more mistake and my house of cards collapses. Unfortunately, He knows all about me. One more slipup and out the backdoor I go? God’s anger lingers with an even longer memory and shorter fuse? Will He pull the rug out from under me at the slightest provocation? Pour salt on exposed wounds? This is what I think. Like I said, twisted and contorted, like our filbert tree out front.
My off-kilter views of God need revising. All those years of sin done by me, and what’s been aimed at me by others, take a heavy toll. Paying out at a devastatingly high price. Warping my ideas of God. Putting the kibosh on my relationship with Him. Just little ol’ me?
That’s why I keep my head deep down in my Bible every single day. Week by week. Year by year. Ignored and cobwebs show up, skewing my spiritual vision. I really want to experience something like this– ‘…that I may enjoy the prosperity of your chosen ones, that I may share in the joy of your nation and join your inheritance in giving praise’ (Psalm 106:5).
Relishing God who is so good and even more loving than I can imagine. Dare I suggest that you too might need a bit more time in God’s Word? If so, the skies grow clearer, so to speak. The air noticeably cleaner. Fog lifts as you mosey along with Jesus!
Arm in arm. Hand in hand. Exactly where I want to be. Come on– join me. There’s plenty of room!
Thank you, Lord, for opening our eyes to your goodness and love. Amen.